I had a lot of fun today shooting some videos for my content company. I’ve always loved creative work. I’ve always loved to shoot videos and to document experiences.
One of my first video projects was when I was 15 years of age. A group of us shot backyard stunt videos with our old Nokia slide phones, then we would edit them on a computer, burn them to a DVD and watch them on the tv screens.
Our little show came to an end, eventually. But I still question why I ever stopped making videos and doing creative things. I guess, high school and university study got in the way. But, I can’t say that was the whole reason as to why I stopped my creative endeavours.
I think it was the belief that these sorts of things would never serve me in the adult world, and so I focused my attention more on the things that I thought would.
After going through the motions, completing a degree in finance and joining the corporate world, I was devastated but not surprised when it all didn’t go according to plan.
I felt suppressed and depressed when I was number crunching or filling in excel spreadsheets with values that gave me no tangible meaning. But, I was always under the impression that it was a fault of mine. It was that I was; too dumb, too lazy and at one stage I even thought I had a Peterpan complex and just didn’t want to grow up.
I remember one day walking into a job interview in the corporate arena.
Before my interview, I was on Facebook reading about how president Trump dropped bombs on Syria, and as I was on my way to the interview I was cut up because I knew deep down that I never wanted to be part of this world, but I wanted to be involved in adding positivity to some of these tragic world events that were occurring.
To me, walking into a cushy corporate role to make tens of thousands of dollars per year seemed selfish, when people were losing their homes, families and lives in other parts of the world.
When I was made redundant from this job 4 months later, I had finally built the courage and self belief to go out and actually pursue the things I wanted to pursue in life, and I guess this is what helped me in reconnecting with some of those traits I had as a kid – the creativity and experimenting with different things like videoing, writing and visual arts.
Now, it’s all about finding ways to do the things I love all day, everyday for the rest of my life. For me, there is no other way.