A Relationship That Must Be Cultivated – Meditation

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I’ve been practicing mindfulness meditation for a few years now, on and off. It’s only been in the last year where I’ve began a consistent, daily practice on average about 20 minutes daily.

I picked up mindfulness meditation after the first long term phase of my battle with anxiety and depression. If it weren’t for the epiphany I had just a month after meditating daily, I’m not sure whether I would have continued or not. It’s hard to explain it, but it was as if this layer of awareness had been completely lifted back and ever since then, things have never been the same.

My meditation spot in my apartment

So far, I believe this experience has served in both positive and negative ways. On the positive side, this was the experience that got me hooked for life. But on the negative, it caused me a lot of frustration at one stage. I’ve turned my back on meditation for months and months at a time, only to some how let it back in again further down the track.

It’s a relationship that has to be cultivated over time. Everyone’s story is different and that’s exactly how it should be.

We are beginning to see great things happen in the world of meditation, as these techniques are seeing a cross over with modern neuroscience and entrepreneurs in these fields are capitalising on the wealth of opportunity as we learn how to combine wisdom from ancient human technologies like meditation and yoga with a new style of explanation, backed by science.

Where am I in all of this? Well, I’m slowly learning about the tools we have and how these tools create different dimensions in our lives. We live in our heads and our emotions. We identify with these things so heavily, most of us don’t even have a clue.

The view from my apartment window

Connecting with the different dimensions of our lives can help with removing this attachment to who we identify ourselves with. It’s the ego, with all of its stories that run our lives. It’s like a computer program. Because we are so caught up in it, we just let it run the show and we lose control of everything else. We lose control of our body’s and our thoughts and emotions just run rampant. This is exhausting, so your energy levels suffer as a result. However, the mind and emotion continue to be your reality.

I had a really rough few days last week and it was an opportunity to watch how being too caught up in your head and emotions can actually damage your whole experience.

I have always assumed that I have a very busy mind, but now I’m starting to wonder whether the mind is busy, or perhaps I am easily distracted by it, so it seems busy but it’s really not. It’s just that I tend to put all my focus on it. You put your focus on one place and that tends to be the area that uses up the most energy.

My next steps are to gain more receptivity in the body. By gaining more awareness in the body, I can use that deeper level of awareness to distract the mind from wandering off into unnecessary thought. I do this with a bit of hatha style yoga. It’s not intense at all, but more about balance, breathing and stretching.